You would kill for this

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 05:24:08 GMT

Summer is fun and so are friends and roadtrips.

I'm happy, finally. It's a nice temporary feeling...but for the moment, it's satisfying.

It makes me exstatic to think that this time next year I will be preparing to move to California for (hopefully) the rest of my life. I'm not just another one of the "yeah, i'm moving to california i hate this town". Acctually, if I had a choice, I'd stay in this area for college. I'd be lying if I said I won't miss this place. I guess after this summer I don't have a choice; I am becoming a legal California resident under my Aunt and Uncle as my "guardians". The only reason I wouldn't go out there for college would be if I didn't get accepted to any of the nine schools I will be applying to. Fingers crossed?

Let's have fun this summer. I'm up for hanging out with anybody and adventuring anywhere. :]

xoliane

Mon, 02 May 2005 02:30:48 GMT

So I'm not sure why but I'm sooo looking forward to prom.
I'm going with Kenny, so it should be a relaxed night, at least, I hope.

Anyway, started my meds a few weeks ago. Things are weird. I feel like everything around me has changed...I know things haven't, it's just different, I guess. I don't keep one single thought in my mind for hours at a time and beat myself up over it, which is really nice now...

Hmm. byee!

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 00:04:48 GMT

If I seem really bitchy or distant, I'm sorry. I can't help it...Really, I don't mean to at all..it just kinda seems like it I guess. Just try to talk to me...I still love you all the same...

There is more shit going on in my life than you can even begin to imagine...

I sure as hell didn't see this coming for me..

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 03:51:22 GMT

So, this really sucks.

Erin has been working for months on skirts for a runway show in the beginning of May and made them so they'd fit me so I could model them.

The show is May 6, the same day as Beaver's prom.

If I don't have a date, I'm definitely doing this show. But it's kinda tough deciding between my prom and a runway show...especially with clothing Erin made.

I'm going to be so disappointed if I can't do this. She said she wants me for other little shows...but this one is kinda really big and means alot to her. I don't know. I know she's been looking forward to this for a long time as well.

Help?? :[

xoliane

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 03:51:14 GMT

In the past week, I
- Have lost a friend.
- Gained a friend, then lost the friendship.
- Have been the talk of the school, in the worst and most untrue way.
- Lost my best friend and boyfriend.
- Have cried every hour I've been awake.
- Lost the trust of many people...because they believe nothing but rumors.
- Gained an awful and ridiculously false reputation.
- Lost all motivation to do anything...for example; homework, study, eat, etc.
- Haven't been myself at all...and forgot who I used to be...

It's amazing how one person's view on something so little can affect everything you considered to be the person you are.

Yes, this is me.

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 00:23:21 GMT

Long, flowy, damaged, dark-rooted hair...

That's right. Red and short. Who am I trying to impress, anyway? So why the eff not. woot!

So what do you think? A lot of my friends didn't recognize me today in school hah. I'm not too sure about it...red hair and green shirts don't go well with eachother...and this could be a problem for me.

xoliane

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 01:31:21 GMT

I haven't eaten in two days.

Is that bad?

xoliane

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 18:58:49 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARI ANN BLUME!! :]

The hockey game was so much fun. Even though we got our asses kicked, it's okay! We got free shirts and thats always awesome. But I cut Bill's forehead open eek. I'm so sorry Bill. You were a really good coach, anyway!

The little bitches who TPed my house were such amateurs. What are we, in third grade? Funny, ninth grade sounds just about right...not that I'm accusing anyone. I liked it though, we took pictures :]

xoliane

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 18:15:00 GMT

You know what? It's Christmas. Everyone has their fair share of horrible relationships, so why whine about my own? It's the holiday season, and other things are more important.

Merry Christmas, everybody.

xoliane

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 04:48:11 GMT

I had a good time at hockey practice today, even though I can't skate on hockey skates. I'm so excited for the game. :]
Powder Puff Hockey Game
Juniors vs. Seniors
Brady's Run Ice Arena
December 29th
7:15
comecomecomecome! It'll be a bunch of girls falling on our asses haha :]

Skating today really made me realize how much I miss it. Even though it was hockey, I kinda still got that feeling I had when I skated...it's kinda like you're floating yet in control of every move and step taken. I don't know. I really miss it. I think I'm going to look into getting started again. This is good for two reasons:
1. I miss it
2. I'd like to start teaching lessons

I'm so excited. I'd really like to follow through on this.

Getting everyone gifts and still being able to afford gas and insurance with my itty bitty paychecks is impossible. Sorry if your gifts suck this year, guys. I tried... :[

xoliane

I'd like to wrap my arms around you like a flesh canopy
I'd like to take your head, place it
somewhere between my shoulders and neck
but, I'm afraid your brittle bones would break
We can hear the black out orchestra singing...
Can you hear them singing?
Can you hear them?
Can you?

The little things in life

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 04:14:09 GMT

I was so excited when I got home from work today
to see that there were huge, big globs
of snow that I decided I'd go
outside for a bit.
That's snow on
my hair.
I love it.

I can't wait for this snow season to finally begin.

Happy First Day of Real Snow.

xoliane

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 05:21:39 GMT

FIRSTS:
1. First best friend: Elaina Operchal.
2. First love: we all know.
3. First real kiss: Bill.
4. First screen name: allstarprincess7
5. First pet: Bubba
6. First car: '93 Suburban, biatch

LASTS:
1. Last cigarette: Wednesday night.
2. Last kiss: ehhh..
3. Last good cry: Wednesday night.
4. Last beverage drank: Sprite all berry or something.
5. Last food consumed: clemintine
6. Last crush: shhh.
7. Last phone call: Bianca

RELATIONSHIPS:
1. Who is your best friend: i hate this question
Who do you miss the most: Whitney, without a doubt.
2. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: nooo :[

FASHION STUFF:
1. Where are your favorite places to shop: urban outfitters, hollister, dsw..
2. Favorite item of clothing: my bright green long sleeved shirt

SPECIFICS:
1. Do you do drugs:
2. What kind of shampoo do you use: John Freida Blonde
3. What are you most scared of: someone grabbing/slitting my throat and strangling me to death.

FAVORITES:
1. Colors: bright green and bright blue...together
2. Foods: clemintines and grilled chicken salads
3. Subject in school: spanish
4. Animals: hippos
5. Sports: soccer
6. Movie: Sixteen Candles, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, The Breakfast Club, Fight Club...there are alot.

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Given a bath: yes
3. Made yourself throw-up: no
4. Skinny dipped: yes...haha.
5. Been in love: yes.

CURRENT:
1. Clothes: cropped old man pants, le tigre polo.
2. Music: q and not u
3. Make-up: the usual.
4. IMs: i'm away.

LAST PERSON:
2. Hugged: my dad
3. Imed: erinnn
4. Last person who slept at your house: Abbey and Caroline
5. Last persons house you slept at: Caroline's

RANDOM:
1. In the morning you are: not in the mood for shit
2. Love is: hell if it's with the wrong person
3. I dream about: weird thingss.. hah.

i have a secret.

xoliane

weeeeeeeeeeeee

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 14:45:24 GMT

MaryAnzio11: aaaawww HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIANNEE:-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-)
EBear49556: happy birthday!
omgz itsbianca: OH SHNAP! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
vince31324: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIANE :-*
redletterday21: happy birthday :-)
M4rk87: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Biancee24: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BEER BELLY GIRL!!!!!!:-D
allstar girl103: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIANNNNNNEEE!!!!!!!
LaurenFronk0523: happy birthday..
nice one chef: happy birthday lady!!!
baileydouthett: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! WOO HOO!! :-D
jzthewholeFNshow: happy brithday :-)
pj8 2 89: alllright, well have a happy birthday liane
baseballgiles24: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :-)

so what? it's my birthday, biatch. :]

yayayyyyyyayayyy'

xoliane

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 20:43:30 GMT

You better say you love that dress, because I do. And I should, considering I bought it yesterday for the two Christmas dances I'm going to. Mmmm<33

I like The OC now, thanks to Ryan for getting me into it on Friday :] hah.

I let too many things get to me in a bad way.

In case you forgot, my birthday is this Saturday. Make my day happy. Buy me a new car.

xoliane

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 19:02:30 GMT

Does anyone know if TBS is sold out tonight?
I heard it was...and from what I've been seeing, I think it is.

If it is, that's fine...Saturday night and the Mates of State show & "after party" will be fun anyway :D

I love the South Side. And the Beehive. And playing with my "band" on street corners in Oakland for money in the late late hours of the night. Hahah.

I'd like to go to a show kinda soon.

I want to meet new people...

I'd like to have a steady, happy love life again. I want to feel wanted...and not be scared.

xoliane

sing along, i'm on the ugly organ

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 04:40:00 GMT

This weekend/upcoming week should be very entertaining and eventful.

Tomorrow is going to be the best damn night of my life.

And so is Wednesday night/Thursday...I'm so excited.

Hopefully Alli is dying my hair this weekend. Maybe tomorrow? Before Cleveland? Hmm...

Alright, so it doesn't sound that exciting. But I've been shut down and let down so many times recently I just need to get out of this fucking state and forget about everything/everyone bad.

My car ran out of gas today on Dutch Ridge and wouldn't start. I almost cried. I also learned that $50 fills it up a little past half a tank. It's insane.

By the way, I got a job at Cafe Doucheyourcooch. Thank you Bill, Ian, and Cassandra!

xoliane

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 21:39:30 GMT

Went to Mary's with Caroline, Mary, and Alli shortly after.
We all stood in Mary's shower for a long time.
Then went in the hot tub.
My hair got wet.
Caroline decided to tease and style it after it air-dried.
And this is what happened.

The end.

xoliane

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 01:59:46 GMT

EAT A FART!!

i fucking hate half of what goes on in my life. no wait, just one person.

Random topic of the day

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 20:16:19 GMT

I am so glad I'm not a Jehovah's Witness.
I like my birthdays and Christmas, thankyouverymuch.

xoliane

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 04:43:46 GMT

I've decided I really like the city of Pitssburgh, especially when I'm with my friends. And when we have free Pitt tickets, even though I don't know much about football. Haha.

I'd like to be in the city more often. Since Erin lives there, too. :]

So, Erin told me today Tom's Diner is closed because a movie is being filmed there. That place is so awesome.

Becky and Christy, do something better with your time than tell lies about me. Thanks much.

i like spending time with you, a lot

xoliane

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 06:16:45 GMT

Two years is a long time to pretend.

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 05:29:52 GMT

1 - Geometry - Sweeney
2 - International Studies II - Inge
3 - Advanced Physics - Hanlon
4 - Phys. Ed.(Days 1&2) - Flynn
4 - Study Hall (Day 3) - Hank
4 - Advanced Physics (Days 4&5) - Hanlon
5 - Spanish II - Hernandez
6 - C Lunch
7 - AP English 11 - Kissick
8 - Yearbook Productions - Spence

So yeah, overall, I'm happy with my classes and who's in them.

School aside, I am, to say the very least, very happy. And I like it. A lot. :]

xoliane

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 22:08:02 GMT

Yesterday would have been our one year and four month anniversary. That is, if you hadn't fucked everything up last month. You're too cool.

xoliane

Reticent Rodent: you need to update your journal / Reticent Rodent: i'm the biggest fan of it

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 05:41:46 GMT

This entry is for Bill and his eagerness to read my journal.

Recently, I've been doing cheering stuff. I finished my sheet for Melissa and it is so glittery and paint is everywhere, but I put alot of work and effort into it. When I haven't been painting her sheet, I've been at cheer practice. It's a joke now, since Heather's so busy with the competition squad and everything...the rest of us just sat there today after going through all the sidelines. But that's okay - it's not like our first game is next week or anything. So if we're a mess, it's not our fault. I do feel bad for the comp. squad-Heather's working them so hard. But everything keeps looking better!

Saturday sticks out - I had tons of fun with Abbey at San Rocco. We were nuts...and she was nuts calling people on her phone haha. When we're together, we always have to do late night Wal*Mart stops to get Chex Mix...and since we're such "hotties", we attract the Wal*Mart boys that are there around that odd hour of the night...hahaha. Then we had a sleepover at Caroline's, which is always fun. I wish I saw them more; they're so much fun.:[

Speaking of fun, Cara, Abbey and I went to Erie two Sundays ago. And Max came along too, but he's a boy and doesn't count. Oh my goodness it was so much fun. We had always been talking about when I'd get my license, we'd do this-and we finally went on our little mini roadtrip! We spent the day on the beach and in the lake and I got a tan. We decided to leave around 6, since watching the sunset while holding hands with...Abbey isn't our idea of a romantic evening-sorry to cut yours short, Cara and Max. We got home in record time. It only took one tank of gas on the Pilot to get us there and back, and with everyone pitching in 5 dollars, it was nothing. The drive wasn't too long either. Definitely doing this again, it worked out very nicely.

Speaking of 5 dollars, I was unable to pay my parking ticket in pennies, dimes, and nickels. I had to run home and grab a five. I wasn't happy. I gave them exactly what they wanted. Oh well.:[

Mark is still a liar and things are still not good at all.

I wish some guys would stop being lame and quit thinking with their peepees. Stop with your stupid pick up lines and your awful "no one's home, you should come over". I'm not a slut, I don't "get around", I don't even want to talk to you, and you're awful for thinking I was like that. Please, don't talk to me again. Go jack off.

Would anyone like to go to the wave pool soon? I believe this was one of my unspoken summer goals. :]

xoliane

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 17:29:19 GMT

Ryan Cabrera is such a pretty boy with such a pretty voice. Why can't there be more Ryan Cabrera's?